I'd like to apologize for leaving for so long without even mentioning it... I've been going through a lot in both my school and personal lives, and haven't really had time for being a part of the community.
This post should double more or less as a final (for now) update on the status of this mod, as well as my goodbye (for now) from the forums.
Looking back on my posts from when I get here, it's pretty obvious that this was the first online community in which I participated. It's still the only one in which I am really active. "Dumbass" is really the only word that I could apply to myself as far as the Internet goes back in '10. I'd really like to apologize for my conduct here, from the excessive double posting, spamming emotikeens, being involved in flamewars both on the board and in the IRC, complaning about op status on said IRC, and the nonstop onslaught of help requests towards the modders. It doesn't show much of the maturity I can actually command when I choose. I sort of gave myself a bad reputation before even doing anything here, and really wish I'd seen it at the time. I feel that I've gotten better as the time has passed, but the damage was irreparable... in my eyes at least :/
Continuing with the theme of short-sightedness and immaturity, I embarked on an adventurous project, which I had extremely high hopes for... again and again I've come to the realization that this would take a lot longer than I thought it was, and that my progress was not nearly what I'd expected. I've lost interest so many times and now is no exception. I'm disappointed, but I've fallen victim to the exact syndrome described in Tulip's first reply to me on this board...
tulip wrote:Welcome and good luck with that project. I hope you'll finish it because barely ever someone finishes a Galaxy mod. That's why we have only Ceilick's full mods so far. It's not that others didn't start Galaxy mods, only they never finished them (Yeah I know Xky's and Benvolio's Mini Keen 4 mods). So before you make plans for a Dreams mod, concentrate 100% on this mod.
I feel bad given how much time I DID put into this project, but it's still nowhere near where it should be, and as I've said, I've taken on many other commitments during my hiatus from this community. Ceilick... I don't know how you ever managed to make one of these mods, much less three plus a ton of Vorticons mods, but I assure you as well as everyone else that I haven't the time or patience now. Long story short, I've more or less stopped work on this mod. That's not to say that I may not return to it every now and again, but I wouldn't look for anything serious. That being said, I'm aware that plenty of you have lost faith in the project entirely, and my being gone for so long likely didn't help. I'd also like to apologize to all of the many people who have contributed to this project and given me so much help. MOM4Evr for your music, VBB for your backgrounds, lemm and mink for your helpfulness in answering my nearly endless set of questions, Ceilick, tulip, eros, levellass, Gridlock... I know you all have your own projects and this likely doesn't make that big of a deal (nor does it come as a surprise). Regardless, I still feel guilty for asking so much of all of you in vain. Again, It know it's just a mod, its not a big deal, but still I try to follow through on things like this and its more a personal disappointment than anything.
Finally, I'd like to bring up my departure from the community as a whole (I'm sure you're SO disappointed... ahh, the beauty of sarcasm.) Again, I wish I could have made better use of the time I spent here, I could have been a much better contributor. A lot of changes have come up recently in this forum and its really just not the same place it was, or perhaps I'm just not the same kind of user. Regardless, I have no real desire to hang along any longer. Keen has always been a fun experience to me, and a part of my childhood, but I really don't have a whole lot of need for it anymore. I've moved on to a lot of other interests. So yeah umm... like plenty before me, I'll be leaving. If I ever come back, it'll probably be to announce something about the mod, so it'll be unlikely that I return.
Sorry again, and thanks for everything. Happy Keening everybody.
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